I remember when I was much better then I currently am.
Last summer was I opened up, let my self be taken from without feeling like I had lost much, to this day i would still say not much from that summer is missing.

She and the winter kicked my ***. There is reasons why people break, lose trust and forget to love.
You can’t always bounce back the same.
I remember when I wanted to be how I was in the winter.
This summer was supposed to open up to me. She would lay in my bed looking up at me. Good god how she was so pretty.
Parts of her were almost unrecognizable to me. She had fire in her eyes before me and I couldn’t look back with the same passion.
Instead I looked at the wall.
I remember when I used to be much better than I currently am.
I couldn’t please her or myself. I couldn’t find anytime to which it matters but she and several others were still there.
I looked at the water days before thinking how I didn’t have time for another person, and in the next hour I had sent for messages asking for some space in my queen sized.
Broken pieces cannot be fixed by other broken pieces and we cannot pretend that broken pieces are meant to carry out time like they are fixed.
The time never seems to go by fast enough,
I look forward to the day when I can remember who I was and accept what I have become.