Thinking of my past mistakes Terrified of what future awaits Remembering the small moments of glee But never being able to understand truly the definition of happy Life around me is sublime Yet all I witness is crime after shameless crime Everyone smiling and laughing in glee Some are liars as I am, but most are mocking me A twisted grin upon their face as they witness my crumbling facade They might as well be beating my heart with a bladed rod I am unable to end this plight A nightmare that will be my dream tonight And it's funny, yet sad Because it's probably the best dream I'll ever have had So smile and smile, please, I insist, grin some more Show me your happiness you haven't shown to me before Tell me how worthless I was with the gleam of your eye How your new smile said the old one was a lie Tell me you hate me, how I don't matter anymore Because I know now that I'm useless, just as before