I am not strong as synaptic junctions stutter and fail and blood pulses hot against thin arterial walls.
I cram sticky little secrets into the space between the mirror and the wall and put on my best **** eating grin- hiding behind words that slip and lukewarm nihilism.
I am not strong as outlines blur into shimmering watercolor and my hands grip the railing for a fleeting sense of functional equilibrium.
I give you only the things that I deem worthy of letting go- only the meek and sickening remembrances of insanity, the things that I can romanticize aloud.
I am not strong as my brain fills with black thoughts and death wishes like saccharine.
I am not strong but you've never asked me to be. You know that muscles pull and that I only have the strength to push. You haven't tried to iron out the lines of my smile yet nor made demands or promises that lie unkept.
I am not strong, but perhaps there is something more.