The glimmer in his eyes are fading like an aging star and I can't help but wonder how on earth a sparkler that extravagant could fizz out of existence so quickly.
It seems just like yesterday when I could not even think of a way to erase that smile of his, and now I cannot even imagine how to hull it back into my possession.
I would reel it in from the depths of every ocean and keep it locked shut in Pandora's box so his grin could never leave. But it already seems as if his smirk has fallen way too deep for me to catch unless I sink down along with it.
It already seems as if the glitter radiating from his heart has been dusted off by his own doubts and I haven't even the heart left to tell him how big my own doubts are either.
I just want effortless back. I want his soul to light up the sky like the fireworks I felt whenever we kissed. But now, the embers are just dying in my palms and they're burning a hole right through every layer of my skin.
But I cannot back down because I promised forever, I vowed always, until my hand has been eaten away completely, I swore I would not let go.
I said I would remain holding on to that little red string that brought you to me in the first place, with that glimmer in your eyes and that smile that could sink my heart in a single heartbeat and that blazing fiery passion that swallowed me whole amidst all the chaos and burned bridges.
But I'd be lying if I said that every little golden star, created from the sparks spilling out of our fingertips, wasn't suffocating, buried under all this dust and debris.
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{I don't know what it'll take to make us whole again}