As I watch the water in this glass Sitting still on the coffee table I think back to that day on the lake When the water stood still And the sun sank on fire On the rocky beach where we sat I, in my sundress, You, in your board shorts and sliders Which now makes me smile With disgust at my youthful naivety And sorrow for your advantageous attitude That I know has gotten you in dark places As I watch the unwavering solidity Of the mahogany table And its stains and grains and knots I am reminded of That long cold winter when the power Was nonexistent for almost a week And the snowbanks raised above My front door And how devastated you were that you could not visit I consider myself lucky for those days As I stare at these bruised wrists Full of memories and unfortunate mishaps I can't help but to be moved And scared at the possibility of relapsing Into that dark wormhole of depression Seemingly impossible to escape As I stare at this glass full of water Still as stone on my table I feel a single tear roll down my throat For I am flooded with memories And feelings galore This glass of motionless water Floods me with life