figure out how to hold back yet move forward,
forgive and forget without sinking under.

there's no way to move without making mistakes;
i've been trying so hard that i get the shakes.

every time i close my eyes, i see one face,
and another, and another; my brain quickens the pace.

those i passionately love, those i claim to hate
can be one and the same, depending on the day.

others take up so much of my thinking
i do my best to not shut my eyes, to keep blinking,
to keep all my feelings away on a dusty shelf
and i wonder if i've any thoughts left for myself.