I am still uncontrollably in love with him
Even though I promised no more pining
But this isn't pining
Because I don't want to be with him
I just can't stand the thought of
Some other girl
With perfect curves
And beautiful alive hair
With a glow around her
Touch him
Kissing him
Dragging her perfectly manicured hand up and down his chest
As he begins to look feral
And tear off her clothes
STOP
I can' stand the thought of them
Watching a movie together
Playing with our puppies
And wearing my ******* shirt
Holding hands and exchanging butterfly kisses
STOP
I have anxiety just thinking about this
And I know it's not fair
After all, he isn't mine to worry about
I'm just being crazy
And, oh ****, I'm hyperventilating
I can't breathe because this knotted hole
Keeps getting tighter and tighter
I'm going to pass out
But not before I cry
But he's allowed to see other girls now
So why do I want him
STOP
I don't want him for myself
Because I will not pine
I just don't want him with someone that isn't
Me
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