she woke up that morning and the layers has started to peel back again she picked at them exasperated and exhausted she thought she was done transforming for now she had just grown accustomed to this new self
she was tired from growing looking around at the molted skin scattered around the toxic, previously inescapable thoughts freshly wrung from her mind the remnants of self love rekindled carefully tended into a warm, healthy fire again the memories finally sorted returned gently to their rightful place in her mind placed gingerly in their box to accumulate dust before she would return to them again someday air them out with a disconnected nostalgia that can only come with time
and that was when she felt it in her bones a premonition an understanding that this was reality that change would be constant from now on
she had to ground herself in the knowledge that it would be okay to relieve the anxiety of remaining in emotional purgatory to quell the fear that she would never feel normal again
so now when the answers evaded her and the newfound familiarity that she clung to melted away with the peeling layers she took a deep breath and patiently kept searching