What is it like to make music? It is skipping on sunlight opening your heart to something strange unexpected something sublimely beautiful in those sublimely beautiful times.
Sometimes it's a bust. Sometimes a thousand degrees of sweetness.
But when the music plays through you when you are not much more than a spectator to sounds emanating mysteriously from your lips your lungs your fingers
It's crazy good then.
There truly are no words to express the miracle of music in the moment the player listening as raptly as the audience
It all comes together at the end and that's the lesson jazz has taught me.
It will all come together at the end in glory or in sorrow or both.