To open this journal
My own excitement exposed
I'd say I'd
Picked the wrong book
To see exhausted, loud lettering
"Our Wedding"
And to hack at the list
Well,
I just felt
Like a **** floating
Almost sinking with the first wave of water
Then suddenly spinning in an uncontrollable whirlwind of deluge and certain death

Could I ever
Just maybe

..

Could I ever go back to a time
Before I caused such a mess?