Why did you do it My eyes feel as if they have been placed On the countertop of stimulation Can't fully process it all Such love, such sweat, such passion I cried in little moments through out the day Napped in the bed next to my mother You were the first and last thing To plague my mind today.
I'm really not sure why But you kept coming up My brother never would have liked you And for the first time I see it all with such an awareness But I wish you and your mama Would stop acting like I did harm Don't you see people are dying? Don't you see that we aren't immortal Don't you see that it takes up so much To give hate To shed negativity To block, turn your back away
Are you just humiliated I leapt over you? Picking up the pieces of what never was around me I wonder what caused it Who said it, what branded it As if its some difficult mathematical equation I was in such a strong place Most days And something about the vulnerability Of really being honest with it all Airing the laundry with no apology And then the abrupt sound of a car screetching As I saw you could not bear You could not bear Why.
I may never get an answer But its you whose turn it is to cry.