i'll never leave the place with gray cloudy skies threatening to rip open at any time and the sun sometimes shines just enough to know it's there intense brief glimpses then disappears and the girl i love more than anything before always and forever never together nothing is innate life's cruelest ironies always testing my fate at night i'll sit on my back porch and smoke an Amsterdam **** listen to the world unwind and dream of what i'll never have it's all in my mind the constant battle who am i kidding i'll never leave Seattle