That moment when you know you just can't breathe
The moment when you completely lost control of who you are
See not many people have that true honesty to confess this.
I know this because I know what's it like to  be this sad
The constant feeling of whether you are good enough
Oh and don't forget the constant panic attacks that haunt you
You start to wonder why you are where u are
You start to wonder how
is it that so many people are ok
To be honest I am not okay
I've said this millions of times
But how is a person ok when they know that their whole world is falling down
How is it that I can still never find the secret to success
My mind is locked away in a series of codes
Codes that I can never find
I wonder if I died today, would people be ok
Would people be happy that I'm gone
Would they cheer at the fact that I am no longer here to annoy them
This morning I had that thought
The thought of what if I died today
I told my parents I didn't feel good
I told them I'm not okay
My mother told me to stop being dramatic
How do I control this please tell me how
Please help me,
When I cry I never know whether it's because I'm dramatic or is it because I'm just depressed
To tell you the truth, I am depressed
I'm depressed… I do not know why though
I'm stuck
I'm so depressed that I've learned to wear a mask already
Like mother like daughter, some might say
Or would They simply say …. Well I don't know what else to say
I don't know how to be the person I was before. I'm not the same. Ik that we constantly grow
But do we grow so much that you can't even recognize yourself in the mirror
Ik I've told this before but when I look at myself in the mirror all I see is a face and a mirror
I no longer see a girl with a dream
I no longer see that girl with a bright smile
I have completely changed
I've been told i am honest
Idk if I was ever this honest