I think a long time before i choose my words and once they're said, they're said.
I don't believe in editing. I don't believe in altering words to make them sound pretty.
if they sound disgustingly horrid or bland then that's fine- thats how they are
the ugly is still art
and in just being art, albeit a plain and boring or terrible piece, is something special
and it's something beutiful

and maybe this phrasing is bland or not that spectacular,
maybe these verses are too long or maybe I'm not using enough poetic devices and I could do with some more adjectives

but i believe in ugly art

because words that don't care how they sound and paintings that don't care how they look and books with boring covers are art after all

and art is ugly, bland, disgusting

but art, in its own terrible way

is beautiful