It happened while listening to a song An old song i used to hear when She was around It happened while somewhere far Away The purple blossoms began to die and fall from the tree And somewhere further she lied next To another man Feeling that same howling loneliness She felt with me That old song put me right back into That dim room Lying next to her Feeling full Full of love fear joy and That underlying loneliness I am always running from I listened to the song and began to Tear up I haven't cried in two years I haven't cried because I haven't Loved since then I tried to shake it off and Focus on the boxing match I was Watching But that ******* song kept ******* me back into that dim room We used to lay around lifeless,jobless, Starving Eating a box of Bisquick and each other's souls all day and night I thought I was missing her But no, it wasn't that It was never really love We were just two wounded spiders Trying to devour one another I missed feeling full. I missed the days without this Immense burning I missed the days without death die Destroy I missed living ******* The song ended The tears never fell But I came pretty ****** close Then I felt that ugly humongous Mountain Crawl off my chest I felt the drowning rats climb out of my gut I walked outside And watched the purple blossoms Die from the tree And the air tasted sweet And my body felt light The war is over. The war is over. My god. I hope my war is over.