We painted our lips in glitter and gold
Just like when I would replay and replay
Emotional young anthems
A tool surrounding myself with
The blackest and oily paint
Taking days and day to try.

Paint and style it on thick
Run thin hands over it
I painted beasts, text from my poetry
Embedded in the stories of my canvas
And I haven't picked up a paintbrush
To regurgitate my innermost
Demons and diamonds
In really, years.

We started to feel silly for dancing so hard
But ***** and tequila shots
Young livin' life
Throwing mermaids manes
Bare maidenhead weds
The past grumbles and tumbles
Itching for my attention
Each day I seek to find peace
And an immense love for myself.

I always looked at myself through
Someone else's lens
But I've been taking the camera
Into my own hands
Where it fits just right.

Flashes of what could have been
Dancing and quick side steps
Demented it seemed so genuine
But I guess I was the one who knew nothing
Like I'm Jon Snow
But its spring now
The snow is long gone.

And I don't know nothing
And I don't know everything
But when I feel less at ease
I plant my feet firmly into the earth.

Rooted and derived from the soil
Droplets from the moon
Uncovering and discovering new types of answers, solutions
Newness, don't fight it
Up and up
Strong voices around me echo so clearly
As a flash or moment of what was
What wasn't.

I restored my cell phone today
After it was stolen
Everything gone, taken
Young women dancing
Thought, I thought
I could trust the environment
Wrong.

Flashlights we hurried, scurried
So eager to help us, the men were
We wonder now if it was all a set up.

And thats the thing.
We, us, women
Theres so much separation
Stigma
But we breathe life into the universe
We will always be more powerful.

A sling shot attempt
Fighting and flying invisible kites
To and from me
My fickle love
I nod side by side
To my shadow
Old and new
Present, lets not read into this or that
No time
I look just like Arve Marie