I miss you constantly You are just beside me Some thousands of miles Of seas and skies away.
It is baffling that I could share the same sun Admire the same moon, as you might feel inclined to do And somehow be too far to ever count it As sharing the same space.
I see all of who you've shown me you are And I package you in precious pieces That I hide in my limbic system And scatter through my striatum.
When it rains, I can't help but wonder If these little droplets were ever closer to you than me And I hate and love them in a single instant Until I can hear and see and love you again.
I miss you with an intensity that scares me, Considering I have yet to meet you, And every second closer I am to seeing you The lump in my throat grows impossibly larger.
I am closer to you when I speak of you Face lit in an involuntary, irremovable, lovesick smile The people who asked must regret it terribly But, as a sap in love, I tell them anyway.
I occasionally regret ever buying the plane ticket I constantly regret buying the plane ticket To meet you would be the greatest joy And infinitely more so my greatest nightmare.
Why would I give myself temporary relief? I will see you and hold you and split my face smiling And then I will leave you and miss you ten times more. I am willingly subjecting myself to this.
I will miss you more than I do. It will hurt, come good or bad, It will feel worse than most things It will feel better than most things.
It will feel like liberation, like knowing the grand prize It will feel like drowning, slowly, agonizingly It will feel like the rush of falling from a height It will feel like the instantaneous pain of hitting the ground.
I miss you constantly. You are just beside me Unthinkably far, impossibly close Within my thoughts.
kinda formless poetry just trying it out because the feelings behind what I wanted to say didn't really want to be put to rhyme