You know...

You know when
You wake up with that stupid drunk smile spread across your face
As if you had been drinking all night in your sleep
You know when the days pass in a blink and you feel high from just breathing air
Like the air is ****** and your lungs are some desperate junkies arms covered in track marks
You know when the explanation to the unexplainable isn't an answer but the question
You know when your hand trembles every time you go to write
You know when your heart races too quickly with fear and exhilaration
You know when your soul burns and all of hell starts to sing at the sight of it
You know when you feel that your body, your heart, your spirit, your entirety is no longer yours
You know when the madness is coiled around you robbing of your breath and your senses
When the madness seeps in and out of your every heart beat
When your scared and terrified and frightened of how good it feels
And when it feels so good that you're miserable with the hurt and the pain and the beauty of it all
That's when you know...
You know...

*LOVE