i am tired in ways that i cannot explain the words in my head mean nothing. the blue in my sky has been scratched out, painted over. replaced by the need to be better than her, or her, or her.
this face, everything i hate hidden beneath painted lips and eyelashes every piece of skin every fold, every wrinkle there is no one who can erase time. it has never been about her- the only war i fight is with myself.