It left me behind,
When I was an infant.
I felt immortalized
Hanging in frozen threads of time,
But those moments weren't mine.
Memories of a stranger in stranger moments,
That I can't recall even if I forced it.

I remember being five, in kindergarten
Counting hours like they were years
Anxious to age, to quicken the pace
Not knowing I would wish for those days,
To taste the breath of a child again
To hold it in my lungs and get high off the past.

It feels like just yesterday I was in class,
Happily working on math,
Sixteen years old
Feeling like an ancient soul.
Time was gold, glittering and bold.
Valuable, but I didn't know,
Wasting my seconds focused on
Things that didn't matter
Not giving myself a chance to have fun and be a disaster.

Older now and full of regrets,
Three months pass in a matter of seconds.
If I want to feel life I have to go out and get it.
Catch the arms of a clock and forget.

But it left me behind,
Soon I will die
Wishing that time
Didn't learn how to fly.

-SLuR