what do you look like?
you look like stale air and dusty doorways that haven't seen you in what seems like years
you look like tearing up over nothing and you look like labored breathing
you look cold, shivering and quaking
but you don't look like you're trying
you don't look empty and you don't look heavy
you don't look like a headache, you don't look like a stomach silently folding itself silently pulling you down
you don't look like burning eyes
and you don't look numb, no, you don't look numb at all

(you are invisibly striving,
but visibly failing)