In this waiting room My legs are shaking My thoughts are spinning around Waiting for my name to be called For the solution to start Standing outside the door I take a deep breath Knock knock "Come in" Voice inside answers "What brought you here today?" I've been practising this line for weeks but my voice still sounds shaken "I need help, don't know what else to do" I say, as I roll up my sleeves A quick look and the expected question "What lead you to that?" I take a few moments to get myself together I know this question was going to come I try to explain what I don't understand myself Tears roll down my eyes I try to speak My throat is sore I can barely breath He writes away on his computer Occasionally looking at me I wonder what he is typing? What he is thinking? I look at my fresh lines on my wrists A crimson red that I learn to love and hate "I'll give you some happy pills, it will make you feel a lot better" I look at the bottle filled with little pills That suppose to make me feel better After three days All the sadness The despair The anger is gone But so is all the emotions I feel like a zombie I feel numb I feel dead inside