In this story I don't keep secrets And tell you all about Gunshots and fireworks How they both sound the same I always sit next to a window Or a door If it leads outdoors I hate black and dark, small spaces and walls Loud noises remind me of showers And water pelting on empty tiles Silence feels like loss Or the calm before the storm I could never trust But it's not that serious I can take the loud and the silence The gunshots and the fireworks You won't even be able to see me flinch in the fraction of a millisecond it takes for you to blink Nothing is serious I laugh about everything Even pain And death And how they were lucky to get an early exit ticket on this crazy ride My biggest problem is I could never let things slide Always questioning age old sanctions I could never keep my mouth shut Eyes closed Feet moving forward Maybe that's why I'm always changing I'm different to who I was yesterday and last week I don't even recognise the me years ago The world was different then It has ended for me many times And began again in the morning Sometimes when I'm toppling over and my insides can't contain the life I don't have any room for oxygen But you'll never know that No one does I'm good at hiding And pretending Make shift scenarios Finding solutions They work for me even if there's flaws in the theory behind them I free fall in and out of everything Planning never made any sense Not when I didn't know where I'd be I like running On treadmills, on pavements, on planes When it gets too comfortable I have an urge to rock the boat New things keep you awake And fresh By the time you figured it out It's time to move on