Every moment of the past 33 years I have hidden Behind this veil of vanity Covering every doubt and self destructive thought with a lie of arrogance Seems that the scars of the past still exist Deep down under the woman you see Lies the scared, unsure, timid little girl That was bullied and torn down Not just by her peers but also by those she gave her love and trust to Never truly able to be herself, so scared of judgement Terrified of rejection No one could every really love her, because reality was that she never exposed her true personality As a young child she put on shows Pranced around in all the jewlery and pretty clothing she could find Begging for the attention, she couldn't give herself Over achieving at every task Desperately trying to mold herself to what others wanted her to be Bragging of her beauty and exposing her body All in a failed attempt to draw attention away from the mortified child inside So photogenic, so prissy and proper So damaged, so broken Would she eventually believe the ruse she had performed for so long? Or would she become more and more disguised by the veil hanging heavy over her face Her breathe becoming quick and labored Her skin beginning to sweat from the heat of the sun Everything spinning, becoming dizzy Until this reality becomes the only option Until this veil becomes her face for eternity