let me try and recreate this
there's so much more here
than what you're getting
and what you're getting
is so insubstantial
that its adding
up to nothing
I didn't want to see that I am

An animal* at the core
what are we doing?
a  mindset of love and honesty
a reality of lies and insincerity

Santa comes in the middle of the night
to take your heat, purposely
he has no better interest
than himself
Just like all else
every degree costs him money
Money money Money

there is black in my lungs and
still it is about
"How much is this costing me?"
until you free from the nest
for your own "better interest"
it's hard
to be perfect these days
I know all I can give
is my best just like the rest of

us, who gives a ****
about what's best?

I'm watching myself,
watching you, watching me
and I'm thinking to myself
god, please
god, God, GOD!?
get me out of here
that's all I'm asking,

just