you never knew that you helped me to breathe
you never knew the day you decided to leave
that I lost a piece of me.
we spoke, it was nice,
it was a bit too late,
your life and your thoughts
you would always complicate
you never knew the importance of who you were
you lost your way,
lost the love of your children
and eventually lost the will to exist
you never knew my kids,
but then you never really knew your own
it hurts to think
you never really knew how I cried,
how I felt so alone
you were never there
you never offered guidance or some words to help see clear through the crazy days
you certainly knew though that your gift of nothing became the greatest gift received
I loved you
I told you
soon after, you died
but not before I felt your pain, and sat with you as you cried