Maybe it's because I have another
milestone birthday coming up..
But I've been thinking a lot about my life.
Some things are already good,
some things are going good.
And some things just aren't.

I still feel single when I'm around other couples.
Because even though I have a boyfriend,
I am walking by myself at the mall.
Eating alone at restaurants.
Trying to build a life,.. On my own.

And I don't want life to be this way.
I'm only getting older.
And I'd really love to get married someday.
Or have kids.
Buy a house, or better yet, live with someone I love, that loves me.
I have given him two years.
But does he really deserve two more?

I don't know. It just makes me sad.

I wish he could give me everything I want.