I'm at a loss for words
when I do talk it's wrong
When I don't say anything
I should

I should show my feelings more but when I do
I get shamed
It's all my fault
I need to stop crying
I cry too much
But the pain in my chest is too sharp
to feel without tears filling my eyes

try gAsping for air when your lungs have collapsed
and then tell me again it's my fault
that I can't breathe