My body woke me up at 3am this morning
I laid nestled in my cocoon
Grateful, gratitude
I read an article my mama sent me
About training and taming the brain
Last night 4 beers in, I'm the skinniest I've been
Since my art school days.

4 days now. I remind myself and remind myself
Yes woman.
Yes young beautiful woman.

It feels good to get up and be so brave.


New found kisses and invitations
I worry at times, what ever will fill my days up
But endless options and my own moon beams
Surround the 5:48am darkness of my window
Begin again, begin again
Soon I'll tattoo those words to my skin.

Remember "resilient"
Remember
You got that just for you.

As a new man describes his tattoos
Concealed by a button up
I'm so new to this whole thing.

Perhaps I rushed and clamped down
Because it was the easiest thing to do
But at the end of it all
Peter Pan forever remains in Never NeverLand.

The trick now is to continue with our potions
Our witchy herbs and spices
My room mate and I engulf air
Our long hair hitting and melting
The faces of every man that looks in our direction.

I cannot wait to be with all of my women again
I've been thinking about the me
Covered in paint, a camera vibrantly in my hands
That little woman
Who gave it all away
To come play in a bigger space
Got so swept away
By badness
But its all good, its all good
It fueled me, my art
And now faces turn in my direction
Gravitating towards me.

I braid my hair, 6am
Set life, I travel and I don't sweat
Or convince myself to be right or true
I knew all along
I would leave you
For my movie camera.