Are you here?
You seem too far
covered in the sun shower.
You're lightning and
you're a flame that burns my days down,
and you brought me down when you could talk so smooth.
He said baby. I can't. Love. Another
I can't stop choosing crazy and numb. Sometimes it's like I'll only love him.
But he made it sound like a joke no
I'm not obsessed. It's mutual, and it know it is.
I forgot to mention I don't have this type of love
I was never falling apart but
I somehow still went through hell and back to stay together like
I was always on the verge of snapping
And it took all my strength
Some nights I'm weaker than others
I used to love my time alone
But now when I'm alone I think
What could I have done better?
Should I have talked it out?
I never shattered but
I guess I did, only when I was alone
But I was never lonely
I just couldn't stop thinking of the piled up mistakes
How much I missed you, but
I couldn't fall in love with all of it
Only you.
And to thank you for the hell you payed me