I should not and will not censor my own feelings. I take precautions: talk to whom I trust, block those I don't I do these things explicitly because I don't want to make things messy I don't want things reaching certain ears, so I do what I think is best but everyone deserves to express their feelings without fear, everyone deserves to talk about their pain without being taken the wrong way, so if you want to know, ask me. If not, *******. I've kept myself quiet for too long. I deserve to work through things and heal in peace. No one asked anybody to go out of their way to read what I have to say. Let me say it again. No one asked anybody to go out of their way to read what I have to say. Unless I told someone something face to face or consented explicitly to their knowledge about something, it's none of their business and frankly, if you think you can make an assumption then you know nothing about my life. If you want to leave me be, leave me be. Let me deal. If you want to be a part of my life, then do so, talk to me. But don't talk about me. You waste your time and mine.