I do not want to disappoint anymore,
I do not want to feel the bullet pain and traumatic experience of lust, hurt, and fear. I don't wanna cry forever and never heal or recover from my addictive ways, of love and give, than fall and crash. **** it hurts! I don't want to repeat a never ending mistake and heartbreak.
I lay my head down and close my eyes, than a rush of memories scatter in my thoughts, than darkened my heart and crushed my soul! It's like my death wish has come to visit me, scare me... I do not wish to disappoint you anymore. I don't want to live like this, to go on through this, to suffer throughout until my lungs collapse and I finally pass onto the afterlife. Let me go, release me, please, take this depression, this aching, this-- insanity away from me.. For I do not wish to live this way anymore. I am nothing, I am helpless, I give in. Let me GO!