I know I have no right to you
I can't even ask you to consider me.
I wait in silence, knowing you have decisions to make,
but not wanting to influence them.  
Those decisions have to be yours.  
It is hard being silent.
I want to tell you how I feel.
I want to show you the kind of life you could have.
I want you to be happy.
I want you to experience love.
A true pure love.
An unselfish love,
that wants nothing except to share life with you.
I want to show you that everything you ever thought it could be...can.  
I want so bad to give that to you.
I know in a way it is a little selfish.
Because I know in giving it to you, it will also give to me.
I have it in me.
I have tried to give it away before, yet no one would take it.
No one would embrace it, like I know you would.
But I must wait.
And if you never decide to take the risk, then I will remain as I am.
A friend, always a friend....who will hold you in her heart for eternity.

August 5, 2012