please
please.
hug me
I am begging you
And don't ever let me go
until we stop breathing
and the world cleaves in half
just hold me
tight
and tighter
until everything
feels alright
I don't know why
It hurts
but it does
and I am torn apart
I don't like it
Any more than you
But I cannot control
the black energy
pouring out of me like oil
like blood
and lies
choking my lungs
on their own air
catch me
catch me.
catch me!
because I am falling
and I can't find my way
its a mess
inside my head
and these feelings
run little strings
all over my mind
and thread me into shreds
of paper
and tears
I worry for you
only
because your worry for me
and fear
and afraid
drives me
I lay down
on my floor
in my head
I shut the door
to keep you all out
so I can be alone
with my selves
so you wont get hurt
but still you hear
my screams
in symphony
with the beating
of your precious heart
and my love
I let go
so I can hold on
even though
I've got it all wrong
survival is a lie
and I can't find the key
to find a way
to be set free
but I tell you
I'm fine
I shut the door
and birth the red lines