you know what i was thinking about last night?

i was thinking about heaven
whether it exists or not…

i think the reason
i want not to believe
is because I’m scared
so terribly frightened
by the thought of eternity.
how could i keep waking up
day
      after day
                     after day…
what could possibly make me keep going?

but then i think about you..

and i think about exploring this beautiful, wonderful world

and then i think
how long it would take
to see every
imaginable
beautiful
piece

you know…

i could have plenty of time for that.

and then i think about other things
like far distant worlds...
millions of planets
and billions of miles
and still all the time in the world


what if i had the time?...
and the millions of miles
to walk through the oceans
and swim through the land
and watch thousands of sunsets
endless in setting
and rising
and falling
again

and what if i had the endless ages
of stories on pages
or actors on stages
and just could sit by, eons on end
watching the riverbeds flow?

what if i had forever
and then ever and ever
and maybe i had it with you..

thats my only real heaven, and surely i'll go
i just hope that you'll come with me too