Looking at my reflection
through the blurry tears
seeing not what’s inside
but instead what’s outside of me
at times like this
I need to realize
that life isn’t about appearance
it’s about happiness and love
whether it’s loving others or yourself
But still I seem to forget
enough to know everything’s wrong
from my face to hair
from my head to feet
Insecure about how I look
if people will like me or not
everything is jumbled up
and i don’t know how to fix it
i wish i could look in a mirror
and feel nice about myself
just for once
too much pain and too much hate
directed towards me from me
i want to be young
and be carefree
i want to go back in time
and be my old self again