i know you're hurting.
deep inside
your soul is yearning
and the only things that runs through your mind like
a brake~less train on tracks
are reckless ways of ending your life.
reckless ways of forfeiting this fight.
you say you won't give up
but then you double~check
and realize
you just might...
sigh
do you ever dream of dying while you're wide awake?
do you ever sit back and wonder
when and how fate will finally take..
when fate will finally take you?
i know that feeling..
that feeling of loss
hope
remorse
grief
bipolar
guilt
shame
screams and sighs
i know..
i know how this feels..
the heartbreak,
the feeling that your life will forever
be lived in shame.
which life am i living?
the one i was born into?
.....
or the life I'm ****** to live?
....
*thinks