was what I had said.
I was a child who would give their life
to spend time with you, but
you were a man with no time for me.

you were the largest star,
and I was the smallest
in the constellation of our family.
you held us together,
through comets that tried to break us apart.
I was merely a speck of light
who brightened up your world,
but I wanted to be so much more.

you were a trail,
and I was the footsteps.
you directed me where to go,
but along the way,
you disappeared into the forest of bustling trees,
leaving me
scared,
lost,
alone.

you were the king of ants,
and I was a speck of dirt.
you worked so hard
to reach to the top.
you would carry burdens of problems
that were ten times your size,
and never give up
until you finished the task.

you were a doctor,
I was a child.
you poked needles into their skin,
them begging you to save them.
But I poked you with my small finger,
begging you to see the scribbles on my paper
that resembled our complicated, yet unique family.

you are a planet,
and I am an electron.
and we both spin around
in endless orbits.
we may only meet
every once in a while,
but that’s okay.
our hearts still beat
at the same time.
The blood running along our veins
are still the same type.
We are still connected.

You are a father,
and I am a daughter.
you were doing everything
to keep the food on the table,
to keep the family happy,
to see me smile.
Even if you may not show it,
even if you may not say it,
i feel it.

and if there is anything you should remember
from my mess of actions,
it's that i've always meant to say,
“I love you.”