Look,
I wasn’t comfortable with who I was
either.
Listen,
I’m happy you found them but your becoming them
is shattering my heart.
Feel
the way I do one day because you will never be the one
to destroy a conversation because you said
something stupid.
I know you felt sorry for me but it was all insults
you had left to feed me.
I couldn’t believe the person you turned into.
You were at the start of the line driving for the first time
while I sat in the back after every tantrum.
Every tantrum was to get you to not only hear me,
but to like me the way I was.
Look,
you need to be ok with those of us who are not
putting money in the bank and who see counselors
in school.
Listen
to your heart and let it tell you to never put time nor effort into
jerks who don’t care about you.
When I saw you after a few years,
I was devastated as I felt your arrogance scrape my face
and turn it red and embarrassed.
I stayed behind after I was told with you
right there.
Since those days ended I became comfortable and you started
to like me.
I don’t want to trade places with you.
You live in a new country and I can be part of a gathering when I’m at home.
We changed and grew wise and sharp,
and I really do care
for you.