Chocolate or vanilla? It depends on if I’m drinking milk or if I’m eating one of your mom’s double chocolate brownies fresh out of that oven where the paint is starting to chip off the sides where the door hits the countertop where we eat dinner with your parents every Saturday night. Summer or winter? It depends on if you called me beautiful in the past few days and if had a good workout that day so I actually believed you or if I’m in the mood to be lazy and lay on your bed and watch movies all day as we cuddled up with that fleece blanket eating popcorn and mac & cheese until we were stuffed past our limit. Dogs or cats? It depends on if I feel like being jumped on by the dog that looks like the one you lost but could never fill the emptiness that took over you that night or if I was feeling okay with occasionally being scratched when the cat who’s as old as you saw a shadow and jumped off my lap. Early or late? It depends on if the clouds are low in the sky and covering that spot where we liked to go and say nothing at all or if the stars are out and we can lay under them talking about the universe and how small everything around us actually is. Dark or light? It depends on if you fell asleep holding me and I woke up the same way or if you went out and came crawling into bed the next morning smelling like cigarettes and her cheap perfume you tried to mask by spraying yourself down with the cologne I got you last month. Past or future? It depends on if we’re talking about the times we laid together and talked about that little house in the woods we were going to have or the countless times I was left sitting by that pond trying to decide what I did to make you change your mind this time. Do I miss you? It depends on if we’re talking about the you that moved your schedule around to come watch me dance up on that stage for the last time or the you that sent that text and left town too afraid you wouldn't end it in person if you saw the look in my eyes. Have I moved on? It depends on if you mean whether or not I stopped thinking about how you signed that birthday card from the both of us or if I learned how to love myself again. Will I ever just give you a straight answer? It depends.