compilations of cold coffee cups, dancing about in my candle-stained room to French music from the 50's, today, contrasting with the cacophony of construction four stories beneath, below, the day is blush. rain as rosewater, fossilizes into flakes on the cheekbones, the lashes. a quick reading of Kerouac reminds one to believe in the 'holy contour of life,' whatever 'holy' means, if it exists at all, whether America is overrated, whether i rather play in puddles of Scotland or some foreign place, how delightful it sounds, as Edith Piaf's voice trances my loveless memory. i'm cold. but we have to be.