I'd like to say that I've conquered all of my demons...but I haven't. I still think of you. I still listen to the voicemail I saved that you sent me a year and a half ago. My heart still pounds when I hear your voice, just continuously hoping you'd say, "I love you" again. But tonight, I willed myself not to give in. I can't give in to you anymore. Besides...there's no use in crying over a lost cause.