She knew how to hold me because she was used to holding herself together. She bound herself, not from head to toe, but from her flat stomach to her nervous armpit. Never quite comfortable in her own skin, but I was comfortable against it.
I never knew what name to call her. So I called her lover. My lover would rest with me. Whispers filled the air like clouds. Our words were puffy and white. Others spoke acid tongued storm clouds.
Now that she is gone I still donβt know what name to call her. Him. His name rolls off my tongue as hers had. Still bittersweet and rough, still my unstable rock.
Rocks crumble and learn that the rain washes them away. Rain learns that falling on, or for, rocks bruises the heart and breaks the ribs. Yet still, the rain comes and my heart ruptures and my chest aches of cracks. Still I long for him. For her. For us.