i am stuck
in a groundhog day hell
of sleeping and working

i accomplish a bare minimum of the grown up people things
i wipe out the bathtub and sweep a floor
every day

and i do some dishes and laundry once a week

but
i am aching to accomplish something more

every flat surface is filled with stuff and dust
and everything needs to be cleaned out

i need to paint a room
patch holes in the walls
make something pretty

create something new

finish the sewing projects

clean out the piles

use the hand spun yarn to make a shawl

if you find my motivation
i will just be over here
somewhere
between asleep and awake