Jan 2016
If I were to disappear without a trace...
If I were to die and my life were to be over....what would be the look on your face?
Would you look back and wonder why we never spent quality time together?
Why we never achieved success by working on things, together?
Did you ever wonder why I ever mentioned love?
Would you ask yourself if you ever showed your feelings of wanting me..
if we spent a love,as one, forever?
My eyes freeze shut after tears in a winter night fuse them shut.
Due to the freezing chambers that :winter Stands" in my emotional seasons.
I could have been basking with you in the sun rays of my "Summers.."
Instead silence filled the already quiet airs of needed sounds of your voice.
Instead of actions to show you care for my presence in this place...
No emotions ever show in your unfeeling face.
The word "you" does not mean just the number "one.."
Feelings of separation from people in which you respect, need, and long to have in your life seem to think that you never "deserved" to be among them.
You were defined as an annoying Buzzing Fly. A "Disgusting Garbage Picker"
Due to not having the "best of things" nor the "Best of Vanity."
I was driven, through forced loneliness.. to my end...
through the cold winds of l oneness driving me to Death's Insanity.
Never meeting those expectations or "rules" which are placed in the people's
"Dictionaries" which define who they can and cannot care for.
Not just lust, Romance, but also friendship...
Since you seem to never fit those defining rules, in their books;your sailing vessel , to a brighter future, to. One less than "Deserted Island"
Shards of dark and hateful words, from you, sank the ship.
I feel love for myself, however, no Human can be "forced to be his own island." and have to be "forced" to end his lonely hours with the "desperate."
People who love to only accept people to fill his life..only because they were the only desperate or scamming ones that would even "Let you in..."
Dragging you down to the Ocean's Bottom due to being involved in their lives full of their sins.
Questions arise to why a heart must beat "Unheard." Just due to how much success or fame he has in his lifespan..well, that's just as accurate, in life's truer "Dictionary" pages ,in which the pages define "selfish," as defined books can....and do..explained the actions behind a "verb."
Actions speak louder than words.
If none are uttered, as sometimes as cold silence can, "define through actions of backs being held towards you," can ever describe..
The messages behind these actions, in everyone's life, can write the "death notice" of "insanity" of the one you cast off....
In your dictionaries written in your own hand written scribe.
.
If I were to die and my life were to be over....what would be the look on your face?
Would you look back and wonder why we never spent quality time together?
Why we never achieved success by working on things, together?
Did you ever wonder why I ever mentioned love?
Would you ask yourself if you ever showed your feelings of wanting me..
if we spent a love,as one, forever?
My eyes freeze shut after tears in a winter night fuse them shut.
Due to the freezing chambers that :winter Stands" in my emotional seasons.
I could have been basking with you in the sun rays of my "Summers.."
Instead silence filled the already quiet airs of needed sounds of your voice.
Instead of actions to show you care for my presence in this place...
No emotions ever show in your unfeeling face.
The word "you" does not mean just the number "one.."
Feelings of separation from people in which you respect, need, and long to have in your life seem to think that you never "deserved" to be among them.
You were defined as an annoying Buzzing Fly. A "Disgusting Garbage Picker"
Due to not having the "best of things" nor the "Best of Vanity."
I was driven, through forced loneliness.. to my end...
through the cold winds of l oneness driving me to Death's Insanity.
Never meeting those expectations or "rules" which are placed in the people's
"Dictionaries" which define who they can and cannot care for.
Not just lust, Romance, but also friendship...
Since you seem to never fit those defining rules, in their books;your sailing vessel , to a brighter future, to. One less than "Deserted Island"
Shards of dark and hateful words, from you, sank the ship.
I feel love for myself, however, no Human can be "forced to be his own island." and have to be "forced" to end his lonely hours with the "desperate."
People who love to only accept people to fill his life..only because they were the only desperate or scamming ones that would even "Let you in..."
Dragging you down to the Ocean's Bottom due to being involved in their lives full of their sins.
Questions arise to why a heart must beat "Unheard." Just due to how much success or fame he has in his lifespan..well, that's just as accurate, in life's truer "Dictionary" pages ,in which the pages define "selfish," as defined books can....and do..explained the actions behind a "verb."
Actions speak louder than words.
If none are uttered, as sometimes as cold silence can, "define through actions of backs being held towards you," can ever describe..
The messages behind these actions, in everyone's life, can write the "death notice" of "insanity" of the one you cast off....
In your dictionaries written in your own hand written scribe.
.
