I survived today on the thoughts of you alone
How you are both the quiet
And confusion in my life
You're still uprooting me
Even when you're not here
I'm in love with being alone
I love the knife
The pills
The silence
The wine
The empty your arms couldn't hold
The mansions your greedy fingers traced on my bare skin are still here
I'm in love with the gentle push of the wind
And I can tame the beast howling within me
I've learned your most impressive magic trick
Promises
Forever you told me
And your eyes the magic mirror
Made me believe
So I promise myself the world
I promise that what I felt was nowhere near love
I promise to find myself
But I'm still looking for my magic mirror