2:03 am 1/07/16* Stream of consciousness My head is exploding and voices are screaming in my head I lay here in a frozen bed amongst frozen sheets and icy skin and my frozen mind begins to gnaw at my insides and claw and claw and claw*
My nose is cold and hands are shaking... Breathe in breath out Moments of clarity and disparity You took my hand when you should have let me drown My room is the same temperature as the stars outside and I'm here staring out my window watching my hot breath fog the cars and I'm screaming at the hidden sun asking why it always sets behind the tall trees and I wonder Because if I was a sunset id cast along the sea... I cast my rays until I made sure everyone could see but then I realized.... And I made myself sick A humble sun never wanted to lure A humble sun was there when you needed something to hope for But is dark The sky is cold My skin burns The pain has once awakened me but the wind has seeped into my veins numb Lifeless To hell they said But what for.... Darling, it seems I'm already dead