Stuck in a dead in that I can never escape. Trying to hold on to air but forgetting to breathe. Realizing all the ******* **** you did to me. Realizing that pain is real and it's okay to hurt. But ******* I never thought my heart would hurt like this. I feel as if I'm falling into the abyss. An enteral slumber of the soul becoming a corporate junking. Becoming a heartless man who's been broken too many times to be fixed. Why why did it come to this? Is it the colors in my head that just don't mash right? Instead of making a rainbow they make an ink blot. Blacker than Tar and darker than sin, Wish to never feel again. I wish all this pain would just go away even for a single day. Instead I'll just push it down. Down. Down. To the very bottom of my stomach. Until the acid reflux hits and I ***** all the thoughts I've been thinking. Until I spew all the words from my head and leave you all baffled from what I said. You'll ask how can you be sad? You're so happy all the time. But I drain myself dry trying to make the world believe I can fly.

   Until that day comes I can look into a mirror and say I love you. To the only person that needs to hear it. I guess I'll be a member of a broken heart club and as a matter of fact I'm the leader of it.