Saturday night
I put on my best work mode face
My body urging me to take it easy
You pour cocktails from your

I can't even create the word to follow "your"
My mind so over it all.
I throw back the hood around my face
Cocooned in thought, creativity, freedom
Green leaves distracting me
This bottled smoothie tastes like powdered bananas
Undulating the pixie dust
I convinced myself
Surrounded you and I.

I have such intense moments of being so sick of myself.

But I breathe in heavily and with lightness
And forget to breathe out
But a step at a time.

I would I could leave my house
Go for an innocent walk
My ear buds in my ears
Taking in the universe
But theres so much darkness
For a girl to walk into alone, I slightly think

But what can we learn by just staring at technological screens?