you walked away
said this is for the better
you stopped the chance
of us being together
am I delusional
by thinking you need me too?
guess that I am
because you didn't say you do.
I'm fighting myself
for keeping it this way
keeping you out of my system
from day to day
may the gods and goddesses
help me over this pain
and I'll bring back my faith
willing to take baptism
but no magic can end
the chaotic war between
this thing inside my head
with a lot of mess
and this fist-sized pumping machine
inside my chest